And So Little Time

I have a book problem. But really, I have several book problems. One is that I can’t stop buying or otherwise acquiring them, even when I have an entire seven-shelf bookcase overfilled with books I haven’t read. This week, I brought home two on the same day: a book from the little free library at my local gym and one that was the original material for a play I attended in the evening.

But that’s not my only source of books. One of the reasons that I haven’t made much progress on my to-be-read shelves is that I keep getting books from the library. These are the ones I tend to finish or hold onto until I realize I’m not going to finish them. Often, I’ll be listening to a podcast or watching a video and hear about a book that sounds interesting, and hey, it’s available at the library!

For example, in Steve Kaufman’s recent video about learning languages by reading, he referenced the book Reading in the Brain: The Science and Evolution of a Human Invention by Stanislas Dehaene. I got the ebook from the library and found it an intriguing deep dive into what happens in the brain when we read and how the brain’s structure and wiring may have affected the development of writing. However, it’s a long book, so I likely won’t finish it.

My biggest issue lately is starting new books without finishing the previous one. Or the one before that. Or the one before that. I’m in the middle of at least seven books at the moment. How many of those will I actually finish? Only time will tell. One of the books I started before finishing the previous book (Reading in the Brain) was another book on reading: How to Talk About Books You Haven’t Read by Pierre Bayard. This was referenced in The Lady of the Library’s video on the weight of unread books. I’m enjoying the author’s arguments about what it means to have read a book (somewhat similar to arguments I’ve heard about what it means to “speak a language”), especially the examples from books I have never read (but have I, now that I know where these books fit into this particular conversation between books?). However, it’s a slow read, and I likely won’t finish it before I need to return the book.

I look back at the books I’ve read in the past few years, and there are plenty I barely remember. I picked up a book from a free library recently, then realized that I’d already read it. Oops. The question becomes why I’m reading these books. Am I reading them just to check them off? Am I hoping to learn things? Eddy Hood, host of the Read Well Podcast, advocates that people should “Read slowly. Take notes. Apply the ideas.” I’ve tried his process of taking notes, but when I realized partway through that the book wasn’t for me, it felt like a waste. But is reading a book and completely forgetting it any less of a waste?

I’m not sure how to cure my book problem. Or sort out my book backlog. Perhaps my biggest issue is not being able to drop something that isn’t working for me. After all, I’ve invested time and (sometimes) money. And, if it’s an ebook, I can’t donate it, give it to a friend, or sell it. It’s there forever (theoretically), waiting to be read. But the book Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management for Mortals by Oliver Burkeman is a helpful reminder that we have a limited amount of time and need to choose how best to use it. If a book doesn’t work for you right now, you have permission to let it go.

In addition to those I’ve mentioned, I’m also in the middle of the following books:

  • Hur mår du? Jag hoppas att du mår bra: En bok för dig som vill läsa på svenska (How are you? I hope you’re doing well: A book for you who want to read in Swedish) by Oskar Nyström
  • Ronja rövardotter by Astrid Lindgren
  • Happy: Why More or Less Everything Is Actually Fine by Derren Brown
  • Linguistics: A Complete Introduction by David Hornsby
  • Love Tales of Ancient Japan by Kyota Ko

Perhaps I can put those all back on the shelf–get off my back!–and see which I pick up again later. And if I end up picking up something else, the previous book may not be for me.

What book is dragging you down or holding you back?

2025 Book Reviews, Part II

Books 13-22 for the year. Have I mentioned that my goal of just reading books that I have sitting on my “to be read” shelf has mostly gone by the wayside? Part of the problem is that I keep falling down rabbit holes when listening to podcasts and discovering the books that people recommend are available at the library. The other problem I’m encountering is that many of the books I haven’t read are meant to be used rather than just read. You have to do things as you read rather than sitting peacefully and reading them cover to cover.

Unraveling: What I Learned About Life While Shearing Sheep, Dyeing Wool, and Making the World’s Ugliest Sweater by Peggy Orenstein: I’m leery of pandemic memoirs, or even books that reference the pandemic, but I was surprised to enjoy this one. One reason was that I was reading The Living Mountain at the same time, and I was missing a human protagonist. I also have a strange fascination with sheep after reading Hit by a Barn and Sheepish by Catherine Friend last year, and I’ve been learning to crochet. The title pretty much says it all–the author set out to make a sweater from start to finish: shearing, cleaning, spinning, dyeing, and knitting. I really enjoyed this book, but I was left with an overall sadness at the huge amount of waste in wool–sheep need to be sheared, but the wool is often just thrown away because its value is less than the cost to make something out of it. I wasn’t inspired to knit a sweater, but I kept remembering little tidbits from the book in the weeks that followed. For example, in the section about dyeing and indigo, she mentions that the Japanese word for “green” (midori) appeared much later than we might think–many things we’d consider to be green are called “blue.” One instance that I remember from my two years of Japanese is ao ringo (青リンゴ), which means “green apple,” but “ao” means “blue.”

Root Beer Lady: The Story of Dorothy Molter by Bob Cary: I already wrote a whole post about Dorothy Molter, and this book was a major source for the one-woman play written about her. It was a bit confusing, though, since it followed themes rather than being chronological, so I wasn’t ever sure where the book was going next. I enjoyed learning more about Dorothy (and was a bit disappointed that she wasn’t the completely self-reliant powerhouse I’d built her up to be), but I had to push a bit to get through the book.

The Living Mountain by Nan Shepherd: Robert Macfarlane really loves this book. According to his book The Gifts of Reading, it’s one of the five books he’s constantly giving away to people. And yet I really struggled with it. Though the writing is beautiful, I kept searching for a human protagonist, or, since this is nonfiction, a human center to the book through which I could better understand the mountain. But, as is noted in the title, the mountain (the Cairngorms in Scotland) is the protagonist. There were a few bits about people living in the mountain’s shadow that inspired a few story ideas, but after having read the book, I’m perversely less interested in traveling to see that corner of the world.

I Must Be Dreaming and Going into Town: A Love Letter to New York by Roz Chast: I picked these up because I recognized the name (I read Can’t We Talk About Something More Pleasant? last year) and read them quickly. Not a lot stuck with me except the idea that comics can be messy (not just perfectly rendered black lines), which was later reinforced by Lynda Barry’s book.

In Praise of Idleness: The Classic Essay with a New Introduction by Bradley Trevor Greive by Bertrand Russell: Most of what was interesting in this essay was summarized in Four Thousand Weeks by Oliver Burkeman. This particular version had an introduction, a follow-up essay about Russell’s life, and illustrations by Bradley Trevor Greive.

Lab Girl by Hope Jahren: I loved her discovery that the pit of a hackberry had a lattice of opal, especially since I’ve crunched a few between my teeth after taking a foraging class a few years ago. And I’m envious of those who are driven by the need to know why things are as they are. But I didn’t want to experience the fallout from her manic episodes, so I stepped away from the audiobook (narrated by the author, who always sounded sad) after finishing a bit over half of it.

Ghostland: An American History in Haunted Places by Colin Dickey: I’d been rewatching episodes of Ask a Mortician and come across Caitlyn’s reference to this book. I’ve been ghost hunting a few times with a semi-professional wrestler (long story), but though other people I’ve gone with have experienced things and I’ve managed to creep myself out severely, I can’t say I have seen any proof of ghosts existing. This book was fascinating, but it completely ruined ghost hunting for me. I had thought it was lovely, at the very least, that the craze was keeping local history alive. One of the points Dickey makes, however, is that many of the stories about the events surrounding the locations are skewed or completely made up by those hoping to make money off the “hauntings.” One major example he cites is that of Sarah Winchester, owner of the “Winchester Mystery House” who supposedly was inspired by ghosts of those killed by Winchester rifles to keep building on to the house in order to avoid their vengeance. Not true, according to Dickey’s research. (And yes, this blew my mind a bit, since I’ve heard the stories over and over and even been on a tour.) He pointed out that many of the places described within the house, such as the seance room, don’t exist. Many of these stories were credited to an anonymous source in one newspaper article and later debunked by those who knew Winchester, though they were eventually built up and elaborated upon by the person who purchased the house and made money by giving tours. So why did she have such a bizarre house? Perhaps she simply enjoyed experimenting with architecture and had the funds to do so. Similar examples, such as the question of why there are so few Black ghosts, made me rethink a lot of the lore about hauntings.

Making Comics by Lynda Barry: I keep picking up books that are meant to be used rather than just read. This book is full of illustrated examples and exercises from her comics writing course. (I’m not sure how it differs from Syllabus, which is described as the same, but I’m hoping to pick that up as well.) I read through it, skimming through the exercises, and knowing that I’ll buy a composition notebook, note cards, and felt-tipped markers at some point when I get my hands on my own copy. (This copy had to go back to the library.)

A Walk Around the Block: Stoplight Secrets, Mischievous Squirrels, Manhole Mysteries & Other Stuff You See Every Day by Spike Carlsen: My mom and I listened to this book on the way to and from Grand Island, Nebraska, where we were driving to see the sandhill cranes. As lifelong Minnesota residents, we both appreciated the references to local cities like St. Paul, Shoreview, and Stillwater. And we expressed great skepticism that the stripes flashing past us on the highway are 10 feet long and the spaces between them 40 feet long, though it’s difficult to check that out with a measuring tape. Overall, however, the various essays about different parts of local infrastructure–power stations, sewers, roads, etc.–didn’t quite gel into a coherent whole. They were fun to learn about, but I didn’t feel like the book quite earned the heavier environmental message at the end.

Next up? I’m hoping to do a sketch-a-day and poem-a-day for the month of April, which is National Poetry Month. The sketch-a-day is in preparation for getting deeper into nature journaling, which is where my interests seem to be leaning at the moment. These might get posted on Instagram. We’ll see.

Currently reading: World Enough & Time by Christian McEwen
Currently drinking: Rose tea
Currently listening: Journaling with Nature (So many rabbit holes!)

Big Round Numbers

I read more than 100 books in a year for the first time in 2023, with a grand total of 125. 2024 looks to be the second year I pass that mark: 102 books read so far, plus a few I forgot to record on Goodreads.

Sounds impressive, right? As a culture, we seem obsessed with quantifying our activities, and big round numbers (100, 1,000, etc.) are the ones deemed worth celebrating. Just look at all those zeros!

But what if I said that 37 of the books were audio books? Or that 11 of the books were picture books? Or that I didn’t actually finish 7 of the books, just finished more than half and rounded up? Or that 13 were comics or manga or illustrated short stories? Do they all still “count”? And why do big numbers matter, in the end? Looking back on the list for this year, I can barely remember what some of the books were about. (I want to say, “They went in one eye and out the other,” but that doesn’t have quite the same ring as “in one ear and out the other.”)

I often think that “my eyes are bigger than my free time,” a play on “my eyes are bigger than my stomach.” I feel greedy for words, for the experiences promised by books. There’s so much out there that I want to read, even if they’re not all worth the time I spend on them. Some, like audio books, can be helpful distractions that make the walk I didn’t want to take or the cleaning I didn’t want to do a bit easier. But others contribute to a habit of “virtuous” procrastination I’d like to stamp out: I couldn’t possibly do any writing right now! I have to finish this book before it’s due back at the library.

Out of the 100+ books I read this year, these were the ones I got the most out of reading (in order of date read):

  1. When We Cease to Understand the World by Benjamin Labatut (historical fiction)
  2. The Botany of Desire by Michael Pollan (nonfiction)
  3. Hit by a Farm: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Barn by Catherine Friend (memoir)
  4. Burial Rites by Hannah Kent (historical fiction)
  5. The Thursday Murder Club by Richard Osman (mystery)
  6. The Alchemy of Us: How Humans and Matter Transformed One Another by Ainissa Ramirez (nonfiction)
  7. Building Great Sentences: Exploring the Writer’s Craft by Brooks Landon (nonfiction)
  8. Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management for Mortals and The Antidote: Happiness for People Who Can’t Stand Positive Thinking by Oliver Burkeman (nonfiction)
  9. At the Mountains of Madness, Volumes I and II, by H.P. Lovecraft, illustrated by Francois Baranger (horror)
  10. The Invention of Nature: Alexander von Humboldt’s New World by Andrea Wulf (nonfiction)
  11. Something in the Woods Loves You by Jarod K. Anderson (memoir)

My friend Sabrina recently recommended The Read Well podcast, which has the tagline “It’s better to read well than to be well read.” In the first few episodes, Eddy Hood talks about the challenges of slowing down and focusing on a book and then doing something with the information you’ve acquired (such as writing an essay) that adds to the conversation about a particular topic. I ended up buying my own copies of some library books I read this year, including Four Thousand Weeks by Oliver Burkeman and Building Great Sentences by Brooks Landon, with the intention of rereading them in order to take notes. I wanted to explore the ideas they discuss more deeply–after all, it’s hard to write things down when you’re listening to a book while driving. Here’s hoping. I’m also going to scale my reading goal back from 75 to 52 books for 2025. I don’t want to feel that I have to read books just to finish them.

At the same time, I want to use 2025 to start clearing the overflowing shelves taken up by my to-be-read pile, which grows every year because most of the books I read come from the library. I likely won’t read or finish all of them (there are somewhere around 150 books), but I want to give most of them a shot. So I’m cut off from reserving books at the library until that’s done. This is a resolution that has quickly fallen by the wayside in the past, so I need to make better use of the “For Later” button on the library’s website.

What are your 2025 reading goals? How did you finish out 2024?